From the recording Skin Deep
Another sun-shiny tune. I wrote this song very quickly. It was easy to write, but hellish to record. I don't know why. This and "Magnus" were the hardest songs to get laid down in any pseudo-satisfactory way, which seems weird. In both cases, the version of the song that appears on the album is one I laid down pretty quickly after having tried various other versions and after having gotten pretty sick of the songs overall. I can't tell if I like the songs or not anymore.
Lyrics
I have lost track of all the mines I've laid
I'm sick of hearing me talk about myself
I can't believe that this would never end
And I beg you not to ask a thing of me
I just want to lose myself in something
Give up everything I think I am
I cannot tell when I am telling you the truth
Right now I don't know if I even can
We are responsible for what we are, I know
So why is it so hard for me to change?
I don't like the way things are, I'm scared to move
And I don't know what I am getting out of this
I just want to lose myself in something
Give up everything I think I am
I cannot tell when I am telling you the truth
Some day I hope that I can
I hope I can
Forgive me